LifeLights, LifeJoys: Illuminating the sparklings of childhood

(July 12, 2009)

Lights.2
(Toddler Memory)

still still still
stay very still
scratching scalp, stretching hair
Now I can see
button tugging, sweater shrugging
“Go out and play”

launched into sunshine
Ah mmmmm mmmmm
eyes closed, face upturned
fingers lead hands lead arms
Up into the Light
to OPEN
mmmmm Tree appears
in heart, feet moving

Woods, aah mmmmm, touch,
sniff, head caresses bark
palms squōsh crevasses
Ah Ah Ah mmm mmm
eyes wander upward
black spikes tickling blueness
(Dead tree to adults, not me)
bottom slides to earth, back leans on trunk
Breathe Love Light Happy

glittering light playing with
hundred leaves hundred colors green
hum huu huu mmmmm mmm

still still still
stay very still

LifeLights, LifeJoys: Illuminating the sparklings of childhood

(Explaining the wee big joys within autism: CarolAnn Edscorn, Jaffrey, NH; July 11, 2009)

Lights.1

(Earliest Memory)

Want
To
Be
Over
There

So warm, so pretty, little sparkies
Dancing
So far away, and I am so small
That square of Light
Glancing
Sideways to see better

Gray shadows, muted sounds
Meaningless, unabsorbing
Movement compared to
Light

Want to be over there
Not in this wood square bars
Breathe slow out
Light expands
Suck air in
Light flickers
Staying in place
Light gone to gray
Overhead, harsh ball of
Harsh light
Not the same, look away
Laying in another wood square bars
Darkness, so dark, missing light

Repeat

Change wood square bars

Want
To
Be
Over
There

So far away, and I am so small